Firsts

I have a feeling this is a first of firsts.  Much like starting on a journey that you think is going just from A to B, but in the back of your mind there is this nagging idea that there might be more.  That A to B will not cut it this time.

So I have started this for no other reason than it seemed the logical next step for me in a journey of figuring and finding out both God and I, and how those two get along.  I am not sure what will happen as a result of this.

                    The entire world will get converted- unlikely.

                                  Someone would read it- also unlikely.

                                                It will help change me in some way- very likely.

How could it not?  Thinking about anything on a regular basis and then transposing those thoughts into words and structure is bound to focus me somehow.  It is a little like when my wife and I get into arguments.  I want them to end.  She wants them to be productive.  It’s irritating!  So I just try to say, “I am sorry.”  But if that is all that I say, it means little.  It is only when I get specific that it changes things.  “I am sorry that I ________.” (you can fill that blank with a lot of things.  I have had an active almost 7 years of marriage!)

I am starting this blog to get specific.  To not just believe or love or admire, but to help me discipline my ADD brain into remembering and reminding myself about what is most important in my life.  That you pursue what you value.  That what you value needs words attached to it.  That what you love needs to be told.

There are really a precious few things in life I truly love, I like a ton of things, but love few.  The list is even smaller for people.  Which is interesting to me for some unknown reason.  I like almost everyone I know, unless you reek of arrogance.  There are many people that are very dear to me, but very few that I actually tell them, “I love you” (hopefully you know who you are!)  There are a lot of people that casually say “Love you!” to others, I am just not one of those.  And I think both types are perfectly normal.

So this is a first of firsts, an unplanned yet intentional experiment for me to give meaning to things and figure out me.  My hope is that in my mess, you can find something to take from the journey as well.  That we can both look at us and see this is all worth it.  Every challenge, every hurt, every joy and all that God has written in the Bible and on our hearts makes sense.  That remembering is the beginning of trusting the next time.

Thanks!